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Created on 1st of January, 2011. Owned by Joa. She is usually quiet & shy, but loves chatting away with pals. Get to know her once, and she will be your blithe friend forever!
Affable, creative intuition, dreamer, loves to dare, write, webmisstress, amateur but fanatic gamer.
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-Mood: Groovy
-Wearing: Fuchsia coloured sweater with ma blue sweatpants
-Eating: -
-Music: RHYMESTER's Heat Island
-Last updated: 15/01/2010
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15/01/2011 = Back to blogging...
 It¡¯s been a very, very long time since I blogged. Actually, I didn¡¯t blog for about 3 years now. It feels extremely awkward to blog now. It seems like I can¡¯t find anything interesting to talk about. Maybe that¡¯s what¡¯s bugging me. I feel burdened to talk only about interesting things, which worries me that nobody will bother themselves even give a quick glance at my blog entries because I am the one who is raving them. It feels like I must write about up-to-date topics or social issues, or find something tolerable and turn that into a sophisticated piece of writing. I really need to let go of that obsession. I really must do. I mean, even when I am about to talk about this cheap hand cream I found and what a bargain I made, I feel intimidated that someone, if not everyone, WILL find a flaw with my writing and criticize about it, which pushes me to the edge that I must be a precise, excellent writer. And all this shit is putting me away from writing at my own will!
Alright, I admit it. Even though I once was a proud writer, I now find no confidence in whatever I write. When I lay out a piece of blank paper in front of me, I have to rack my brain to THINK. Not write, but THINK. It¡¯s even hard to THINK up of what to write. All these ages of education were worthless. I am here, stupid and infatuated with oily junk food and pointless games and endless times of sitting on my couch and watching episodes after episodes of Japanese animations. Plus, all these are eating away my health. I promised myself that I would get my lazy butt over to the yoga centre long before 2010 ended, but here I am, doing nothing all my winter vacation. All my plans and New Year resolutions are gone. Just. In. 2. Weeks. Now that makes me feel pathetic. Maybe that¡¯s what I am at the moment.
Then, I thought if I start writing down my feelings, thoughts and all that shit, I might be able to get back on the track, become organized, focus on my studies, and start to actually THINK. This is all I am hoping for at the moment. Perhaps I should start cleaning out my laptop files, and clean up the mess in my room, keep things organized, and stick to my plans. Then I could, and will feel better.
2ND week of Jan. 2011 To-do-list:
- Find out how to install fanupdate (Or find services like old, good Haloscan)
- Clean desk, ONE MORE TIME (I mean, really CLEAN, not just stacking all in piles)
- Clean out all my files in ma laptop, organize them
- Reschedule my agenda (Keep to the plan!! DO NOT PROCRASTINATE)
- Update blog REGULARILY
- Stop listening to music when sleeping; my left ear aches from it
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